Baat karni mujhe mushkil kabhi - - - - - -

I have been told that first five are difficult,
there after it gets easy,
this 'Blogging' thing.
This is the Fifth one,
and I am certain that after this ,
thoughts will come like clouds in the monsoons,
and the words will start pouring like drops of rain,

Hell, this fifth one ,
I must get it out of my way as fast as I can,

'BAAT KARNI MUJHE MUSHKIL KABHI AISI TO NA THI',

It is fun to try out new things, and this technology has its advantages,
as long as this platform is not used to cause pain,
or hurt some one,
as long as there is no hidden agenda,
as long as it is plain expression of random thoughts, for no particular reason,
This 'Exhibitionism' is fun,
I am beginning to have fun too,

one has felt the power and pleasure of expressing earlier too,
in various forms,
Ghazals some times, unstructured poetry ,
or just plain text,
for whatever they may have been worth,
but those have remained confined to self and a few, close to heart,
these thoughts however are in public domain ,
this is fun

'JAISI AB HAI MERI MEHFIL KABHI AISI TO NA THI '

There !!!!!!!!
the fifth one is out of the way,
I am already beginning to feel the thoughts jostling for space in my mind,
I must be on the verge of some great self discovery,
I am rest less, I am anxious,

LE GAYA LOOT KE KAUN AAJ TERA SABRO KARAR,
BEKARARI TUJHE AI DIL KABHI AISI TO NA THI'

to be honest though,
one still longs for the feel of paper and pen in hand,
those pages written long ago have turned yellow,
some are torn and folded,
those are precious moments of life preserved on paper,
there is more to a thought than the word alone,
the medium too plays its part in evoking nostalgia,
When one opens the old diary, and a page in it,
the handwriting, the cuttings and the corrections,
a dried flower preserved some where,
a familiar fragrance,
left behind by some one close,
some one intimate,
Can that ever be replaced ?????

I have taken to the new technology,
but I can never distance my self from my nostalgic self,

chalo theek hai

KABHI KISI KO MUQAMMAL JAHAAN NAHIN MILTA